Monday, August 6, 2012

Provider vs. Provision

Over the past six months, I have been seeking God as my Provider, as Jehovah Jireh. Or so I thought.

Friday evening, Tyler was in a car accident in a pretty rough neighborhood near our home. It was a drama filled hit and run accident. Thank God, he is just fine! Our car however, looks a little more beat up....

It was about this time last year that we were in the market for a new car. Why? Because in May of 2011, Tyler's SUV was stolen and stripped while we were out of town. 

We had no idea how we were going to replace it, since we did not have comprehensive insurance coverage on the vehicle. A junk yard bought the SUV for the scrap metal and parts, for just over $400. And up to this point, we had not been saving for a car-- we had 2 cars that were doing just fine. So, one car down and no help from insurance. What an unpleasant surprise! So, we prayed and asked God to give us what we needed with the upcoming school year, and us needing to be in two different places (one car didn't seem do-able). We invited others to pray for us as well. We did not ask anyone for financial assistance with the matter. 

As people began to respond, not just with prayer, but with financial assistance, we couldn't help but give God all the praise! He was providing us the money we needed to buy a used car! In less than 3 months, God had brought in enough for us to buy a 2007 Hyundai Elantra -- and what a beauty!!

I was certain that God was receiving my gratitude and praise for providing us with this car. Until Friday night. It was a bizarre realization... but I was deeply convicted. I don't put all my trust in the Provider, but rather what He provides. And what He provides, is His -- He can take it away just as quick as He gave it! Well, that hurt to come to terms with, but also very freeing.

Now, in the season of raising financial support alongside Tyler, as we prepare to move to New Jersey for our first assignment in full-time ministry together, I can seek to not put my hope in the finances God provides, but in who He is as Jehovah Jireh, my Provider!

"The Lord gave and the Lord has taken away;  may the name of the Lord be praised.” - Job 1:21

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